Truth telling. That
is what I’ve discovered about writing. For
me it is about - Truth telling. Truth
telling about my journey. Our
journey. My life. Our collective plight of survival. Truth ain’t easy. Truth needs to be told. Truth breaks the shackles that bind me. Truth lightens the load I’ve carried a long
while. Truth is meant to uncover. Truth is meant to tell on myself. Truth is meant to inspire. Truth is free. Truth.
Writing truth about my moments - The burden of having my
childhood body assaulted by men, again and again. The shame I bore when another man physically abused
me. When I believed him that I was worth
nothing, ugly, and I needed to be grateful for his kindness. The silence I endured after rape. The blame I hold onto because of all these
experiences. I came to understand the
ugly reality that ‘‘hurt’ people, ‘hurt people’”. Also, the sweet release of forgiveness and
letting go. The truth about me hobbling my
life back together after these experiences with a sense of loss and letting go
of childhood dreams. The burden of
standing tall, proud, and with dignity while hiding me. And, the moment I fell in love with my son as
a newborn baby. My moment of realization
- I had to get us away. I couldn’t have
him witness me being beaten and my spirit taken. The day I fell to my knees, I couldn’t bear
the weight any longer, and I realized the grace of God. I was harrowed when I felt the love of God. Now, I appreciate the humbleness I feel in
creation. How I am in complete awe of it. All these moments of my life are meant for me
to discover me. I had to reclaim my
body. I had to understand my
journey. I had to actively participate
in my life. Also, I had to come to
realize the amazing people who have held me together along the way – Some quietly.
Some gently. Some softly reminding me of
my worth. Some forcefully. Some lovingly. Some by sheer will holding onto me cause I
was disappearing. It is with this truth that
I tell. The truth about living my life. I still believe in the magic of love. I still have enough hope to fill oceans. I have lots of dreams that I still gotta do. It’s been an incredible journey so far, and I’m
here, so come on let’s get to livin’…
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