Saturday, May 28, 2011

Telling on Myself: Why I write

I've written for work. I've written for school. I've kept a journal since I was 14 years old. I wish I can say that I've always enjoyed writing but it wasn't until recently that I've learned what a joy it can be. The technique of writing and the technical aspects of writing are tedious but a writer writes. 

I write things that interest me and write about things that I'm learning about. There are some issues that keep presenting itself in my life so I write about them. Some writing is me reconciling some issue. Some writing is an issue that I'm struggling to understand and want to come to terms with. I write what inspires me.  I write cause I can.

I'm on the verge of 39 and looking back on my life appreciating what I've done. I've learned a few things. There are many things that I want to learn. There are places I want to see. There is a lot of life yet to be lived.

When I write about reconciling my life and healing trauma I do this to share my story with people. I want people to know that they are not alone. There are many writers that I've read and helped me understand my life. I am grateful to them for carrying me along when I couldn't. They may not have known it but they are my private champion. They tell me that it does get better. Just over that emotional hill and I will be alright.

I am cognizant that when I tell on myself that there are people who are in my life that influenced me in some way. It is my hope that they recognize they are a character in my story. They helped me become the person I am becoming every day. For this, I am grateful. I am becoming more of who I am everyday and who I am supposed to be because of them.

When people read what I write I hope that they take the lessons that they need and move along in their life. Live it fully. Experience it with as much fever and passion as possible. Know that we are all on this incredible journey called life together. I don't believe in accidental meetings or fate but what I've come to believe is that God unveils themselves to us all the time. It is in those unyielding aha moments.

I write now cause I enjoy it. I enjoy the written word. I am fascinated in how words are put together. I've become a veracious reader. I listen to people talk so I can write about it. I watch situations cause there is something there. When I am inspired, I write. I allow the artistry of it to flow. Once it is out there. I step back and edit. I review what has been written. I think about what is being said. When I read it aloud or post it on my blog then it is ready for the world.

What I know is my truth. My life. My understanding of what it is to live as honestly as I can. If there is a lesson there for people then I'm happy but I'm hopeful that in some way as people read what I write they will be inspired. Know that they will survive past the hurt. Understand that pain and joy occupy the same place. Failure is not bad, failure is not learning what needs to be learned and getting up. You are responsible for your life. Our ancestors dreamed of a day that you'd be here so wallowing in self pity does not honor them or show them respect.

I've come a long way and I've got a long way to go. I'm happy that you've joined me on this journey and I hope we learn a lot together. Life is about living so let's get to it.

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