Poem: At Once I Am

I am searching for a place in my mind to hush the whispers

The longing and aching for someone

Love n intimacy

The elusive duo

I settled and found someone but

Found that it didn’t happen

My hurt n brokenness came forward with a force

Shattering what could have been

Pain that I did not know lay about

I thought I was ready but time showed I wasn’t

I find those places where hurt lay when I stumble

Fumble and fall upon them

The men I loved at the time

Tried in vain

To keep me together but

I pulled

I tore

I screamed

I ran

I couldn’t be

Stifled and healed

At once

The hunger for passion and love

Is unquenchable

It hovers about

Recognize me

I feel beautiful

Delicious

Scrumptous

Tantilizing

Fuck me you fool

I have no bearing of what happens

I will have you lose your mind

You will want and need more

From the wells of my desires

I nourish

I am

February 2, 2008